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I've unwittingly lived my adult life with the deep, sharp fear that scarred my early childhood and teenage life. I've been left exhausted by an absence of trust, a gnawing uncertainty and frankly, a toxic co-mingling of physical violence and love. This has only brought unnecessary suffering; to myself and to those that I love. I have avoided actions that would bring much joy into our world, preferring instead to exist in a cognitive 'safe mode' and emotional isolation. I have clung oh-so tightly to familiar and unhealthy patterns, partly as a rough and worn comfort blanket - but mostly because the alternative meant getting closer to others. And that fucking terrified me.

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Friday Reflections, Volume XII

May 28, 2021

This site creates a cosmic flywheel. It generates an energy and motivation that is now spilling over into other parts of my life. Until very recently I utterly cherished the limited time I had to write. I'd wrap up a post with a sigh, knowing I had to return to a tired, greying corporate world. It felt like my real life extended to only 30% of my waking hours. Now I bring the colour of creativity into all parts of my day.

Untitled (Interpol)

May 25, 2021

2004 was a very different world. A physical CD. A plastic case. A paper booklet. In the 17 years since we have complete transformed how we consume music. Really makes you wonder what the next 17 years has in store for us. What the hell will be doing in 2038?

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Friday Reflections, Volume XI

May 21, 2021

Each post that I write helps to develop my mindset, even if they are a bit of a rabble sometimes. But I am thinking better. I am building better. And it is there for everyone to see. Some weeks I will go off in a very personal tangent. Others I will cast my gaze externally, musing about the world around me.

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Friday Reflections, Volume X

May 14, 2021

That's Big News (for moi at least). I have unlocked an intrinsic motivation; to splurge nonsense on the interwebs. That is my truth. For many years I've struggled with consistency of output. I just get bored after a little while, y'know? Once a process/format/system/website/structure is built and settled upon, I lose interest in the operational side of things.

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Any Goal Will Do

May 11, 2021

You take inspiration where you can get it. For me it was television and movies. Even the evening news gave a glimmer of something different. Those folks on screen looked confident and assured. They had an apparent grasp of the world that was sorely missing at home. All total bullshit, of course. But there is much power in perception.

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Friday Reflections, Volume IX

May 7, 2021

Writing brings me great joy. It is a beautiful biproduct of curiosity. And with that very same curiosity comes the desire to connect. To build a network with the wider world. To learn how others navigate this life. By putting myself out there, I hope to cross paths with as many varied and interesting folk as possible.

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Your Own Game

May 4, 2021

In this era, our limitations are our motivations. What gets us out of bed in the morning? It is different to what we consciously, actively, think we are passionate about. 'Passion' can be manipulated by all sorts of conditioning and cultural fashions. This is a whole lot deeper, friends; what actually fires our neurons? What gives us energy?