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I've unwittingly lived my adult life with the deep, sharp fear that scarred my early childhood and teenage life. I've been left exhausted by an absence of trust, a gnawing uncertainty and frankly, a toxic co-mingling of physical violence and love. This has only brought unnecessary suffering; to myself and to those that I love. I have avoided actions that would bring much joy into our world, preferring instead to exist in a cognitive 'safe mode' and emotional isolation. I have clung oh-so tightly to familiar and unhealthy patterns, partly as a rough and worn comfort blanket - but mostly because the alternative meant getting closer to others. And that fucking terrified me.

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Celebrating Rhythm

April 6, 2021

So what to do? Bring a little rhythm into your life! For me, it ain't about the big things. I don't mean meeting regularly with friends, playing 5-a-side etc. If anything, that can add to the stress. I hate having other commitments when I have no rhythm.

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Friday Reflections, Volume IV

April 1, 2021

There are good days and bad days, trust me. My pleasant days result in neat writing, real reflection and logical sentences. On my very worst days I am like Jack in The Shining. A scribbled mess of anger and distress. Repeated (unrepeatable) phrases.

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Zoom Out

March 31, 2021

Float above yourself and look down on a given scenario, role or location. Extract yourself from the micro-stressors that cloud your judgement. Now how do you feel? Are you learning or experiencing in a way that benefits you, two or three years from now? If so, then you'll instantly relax. If not, then you have all the info you need; move on or move out.

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Friday Reflections, Volume III

March 26, 2021

We cannot just reopen the shipyards, coal mines and mass car factories. We cannot create more university towns and public sector back offices. That was the playbook of the 20th century. The solutions for the 21st century run much deeper than that. We must ask ourselves the hard questions.

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Release Your Attention

March 22, 2021

You want the spaces you inhabit to recharge you. Not to provide a low hum of anxiety. By releasing your attention from minor items, you can refocus on those activities that you really enjoy. For me, that is time with my gang, my websites, my writing and my guitars.

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Friday Reflections, Volume II.

March 19, 2021

More importantly, and perhaps my real point here, I commit myself to betterment every bloody day. It can come in all shapes and sizes; writing, organising, chilling with my favourite person and my favourite dog, reflecting. Pushing the needle is perhaps the reason for being. Am I learning? Am I discovering? Do I satisfy my curiosity?

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A New Journal

March 15, 2021

Take a moment to reflect and commit your thoughts to language. It can be a healing process; once you see the 'logic' of your emotions in words, they frequently look a bit silly. Sure, you don't always walk away from a diary entry with a clean mental slate. But the power of a journal compounds over time. It leaves a trail of recollections that would otherwise be lost in the ether.